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3:58 a.m. - Tuesday, Aug. 22, 2006
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in i fear here is the deepest secret nobody knows i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) 12:53 a.m. - Tuesday, Aug. 22, 2006 At eather rate, here's a little mini update to curb your... wonderings. I am happy. I am unhappy. Tom and I are divorcing (ooh.. I need to get on that). I need a job. I am in love (obviously not with Tom). Ummm... I like sex. I am talking to Jason again. My future is uncertain. Everything in one part of my life right now is standing on the edge of a knife. Remember Loren? Heeee's baaaaaack! (Are you guessing who I'm in love with yet?) And he's back with a vengeance. We've been... hanging out a lot lately. I have to say that even though my life is inconstant and erratic at the moment, I haven't looked back. I wouldn't change it. I'll bet you're wondering why I make such ludicrous statements? Because while, yes most of this past month has gone up in flames, those moments that were unspoiled have made last month the best month of my year. For every ounce of anguish and misery that has coursed through my heart, it has always been followed by a moment of complete bliss. Those are the moments and the feelings I would hold onto should it all end tomorrow. The feelings and moments that I never expected to happen in the first place. Thus I cherish every one. I hope that I will not, once again, forget about writing here, and come back to this entry and have it fill me with sadness. I hope to have it produce a smile and happy thoughts. However, it's not quite up to me. What is up to me is to have this serve as a reminder. Until next time, Goodnight.
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