3:58 a.m. - Tuesday, Aug. 22, 2006
I Carry Your Heart Poem
I was surfing around and I read... something... that reminded me of one of my most favorite poems. I just had to search for it to read it again. I thought that it'd be a good idea to make it more... avalable for me to read it when I want to! So why not put it in a blog!! Here it is! :)
"E.E. Cummings" -- I Carry Your Heart
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
12:53 a.m. - Tuesday, Aug. 22, 2006
Remind Me of Happy Times
Thanks to Loren and Jason, I realized that I have sucked at updating this. I have still been writing, just in my myspace blog. More people seem to read it. I was also thinking of just taking my entries and moving them over here, but... I don't know. Maybe.
At eather rate, here's a little mini update to curb your... wonderings. I am happy. I am unhappy. Tom and I are divorcing (ooh.. I need to get on that). I need a job. I am in love (obviously not with Tom). Ummm... I like sex. I am talking to Jason again. My future is uncertain. Everything in one part of my life right now is standing on the edge of a knife.
Remember Loren? Heeee's baaaaaack! (Are you guessing who I'm in love with yet?) And he's back with a vengeance. We've been... hanging out a lot lately. I have to say that even though my life is inconstant and erratic at the moment, I haven't looked back. I wouldn't change it. I'll bet you're wondering why I make such ludicrous statements? Because while, yes most of this past month has gone up in flames, those moments that were unspoiled have made last month the best month of my year. For every ounce of anguish and misery that has coursed through my heart, it has always been followed by a moment of complete bliss. Those are the moments and the feelings I would hold onto should it all end tomorrow. The feelings and moments that I never expected to happen in the first place. Thus I cherish every one.
I hope that I will not, once again, forget about writing here, and come back to this entry and have it fill me with sadness. I hope to have it produce a smile and happy thoughts. However, it's not quite up to me. What is up to me is to have this serve as a reminder.
Until next time, Goodnight.
